Balance. This is something that I’ve always struggled with when it comes to health and nutrition. I either over eat, or restrict. Over exercise or none. I’ve never been able to just be balanced.
I’m trying to lose the last 5 pounds right now, but I’m having trouble eating in a way that i don’t feel deprived or begin to overeat. I’ve been trying to avoid calorie counting, but maybe that’s something i should be heading towards. So far my eating has been lighter than usual, but I don’t think it’s been quite the same (or restrictive) as when i calorie counted.
However, I haven’t been binging. And this is a big step for me. I’ve been letting myself eat what I want and pretty much stopping when I’m full. This is how I want to be able to eat for the rest of my life. I always eat pretty healthily in terms of quality and types of foods, but portion wise in the past I’ve been out of control, and this was part of the disordered eating which caused me to gain weight.
My official weigh in will be next Monday, so i will analyze how my progress is going then.
So far what I’ve been doing to shed the last 5:
-Cardio 5 times a week
-Trying to eat ‘lighter’ (still not sure what this is going to mean for me)
The eating lighter part is what I’m having trouble with. I think i need to count calories otherwise i will just be eating at my ‘normal’ range, where i maintain. Part of me thinks that maybe this is just where my ‘happy’ weight is. But the other part thinks that if i lose 5 more pounds i should be able to maintain there easily as well. I want to find the weight that I am meant to be at.
What I’ve eaten so far today:
-sandwich thin, half with almond butter, half with egg
-small piece of 85% dark chocolate
-apple with peanut butter
My goal here is to be comfortable with my body and weight. I know how to eat healthy without calorie counting, but I’m not sure that I know how to lose weight that way.
This shall be an interesting endeavor.